What they do to a brick wall.

Stood infront of a mirror
I can see the knife in my back
The thorn in my side
It has their faces on the blade
Their words on the tip
And I wonder, when did I deserve it?

The mascara stained cheeks
Once red now they are grey
Their betrayal flooding my throat
Then I choke.

My mind a bucket full of tears
Their bullying the salt I can taste
And they were supposed to be friends
With the light so far away
And all survival flooding through the pain
Never to be seen again.

The mascara stained cheeks
Once red now they are grey
Their betrayal flooding my throat
Then I choke.

I'm defeated deep down but outwardly I'm strong
I don't know where this strength is coming from
My pride failed years ago, my dignity they stripped from me
So maybe I just will never show how I feel
I ask myself, is this real?

When I'm all alone my walls collapse
And Im scared through this night
The sun will loose it's will, loose the fight
Never to reappear.

I choked.