Forget My Pride

Look at the chilling rain
as it falls upon my skin
look at me as though I'm still sane
for I can't get out of this depression I'm in

Words cannot describe how much I miss you
Words cannot describe how alone I feel
you claim that I lie, that nothing is true
but in reality, I'm telling you how I feel

She's so depressed compared to me,
I look like a smiling child
but that doesn't mean that I am free
of the guilt and displeasure I have compiled

I read her pain, hearing her thoughts collide
and feeling completely despondent for crying
when she's in need of more help, forget my pride
for there would be nothing worse than her dying

But I've lost you no matter how you say it
I lost you to her, but I feel ghoulish
because she deserves you, you're the perfect fit
all my heartbreak and despair, feels almost foolish

My thoughts are running insanely in my head
and I can't help but wonder why I still care
I feel thrown aside, wishing I was dead
but I know my issues don't hold a candle to her despair