Walls of Silence

huddled beside you
I fight tears
as you lay wrapped

in the walls of silence
that separate us
twisting, undulating
like an angry sea
casting out its tentacles
to drown me
in bitter waves of despair

I battle valiantly
clinging in desperation
to the tattered shrouds of hope
that are the remnants of the blanket
that you once placed upon me
protecting me from the humiliation
I now know more intimately
than I do you

you never notice
wrapped up in the contentment
that you snatched
from the furious coupling
that I could not make myself want
the selfsame that you did not even notice
I cried through

it was not from emotion
but from a lack thereof
as you laid there in silence
never hearing my mute pleas
to love me, need me, save me
from the battle for self
that your indifference thrust upon me
at the moment you so unfeelingly thrust into me

I did not win
instead
I huddle beside you
while you lay wrapped

in walls of silence.