It's like these past 5 months didn't .exist.
I've a wisp of memory dust taken over me
I just stopped for a second and ~ realised ~
I've slept with you baby;; [about 52 times].
& I can't help but remember the details,
this once shy l.i.t.t.l.e girl has been |taken|.
& how do I know that's not all you ever wanted?
I can feel the embarassment _-Flush-_ my cheeks
as I feel your body pressed ((tightly)) against M:I:N:E
you went in me & you went so smoothly out
you did what I wanted;; you gave me sweet love.
((knew it was too good to be true after all))
with your beautiful hands >touching< me there
and your mouth ::eating:: me up
((it was fucking good I'll give you that))
it tasted like love & dedication at one point
[some sweet kisses and utterence 'Iloveyou']
Blurry, shady [I can never look at the spare room in the same way]
as our bodies interwined and we gave each other ♥love♥
I broke into a t*h*o*u*s*a*n*d tears when you left me those days,
just waiting for the day you could be back to stay.
I was longing for another sweet release
to have you wrapped in my arms forever
& trust me when I say I don't want anyone else
I've learnt my mistake [& nobody takes your place].
I can still smell the O_r_A_n_G_e flavoured condom
with the packet slickly placed in the >bin<
The sweet sensation of your breathing against mine
as we make love in the most beautiful R Y T H M
I know I can't beg you & turn weak
but its not just the sex [[never could be]]
I fell for you & I can't fucking fall out of love
((I don't love you;; I'm in love with you))
cant you take me seriously now?
When you said *ILoveYouSoMuchBaby*
did your heart really burn deep?
& did tears roll down your sadened eyes
when we were apart [& could you sleep?]
Is this just a waste of time for me ((I guess I know the answer))
are you truly not that _beautiful_ man I saw so very recently?
When I'd cry you'd hold me >AGAINST.YOUR.CHEST<
when you cried you'd tell me "I want only you with me"
What changed?
I cry when I think of us together because you seem to not care
when you tell others I'm single and that we've slept together
its like you don't see that it --hurts-- me deep down
or if you do **SEE** my hurt you don't really give a x.DAMN.x
*youllneverreadtheselines* or maybe you will
you love to read my poetry ((you said you did))
you loved to look at how I really felt
[kept telling me my poetry was beautiful;
but did you mean all that you said?]
& don't tell me I'm ranting because I'm depressed
I'm depressed because *you* didn't talk to *me*
for 2 weeks I didn't know how you were at all
and then you just called me up to dump me
"I don't feel good; I tried to kill myself
& I think we should have a break for the time
I still love you though baby; love you goodbye."
& you said you had your phone switched off those weeks
but you spoke to one of your best mates Stu then
[remember he's my damn friend too now you know?]
& he's been over to your house ((must be so depressed
and you want to be alone obviously, like you said))
I've been considering taking the leap of +death+
because without you I don't want to feel
& if you don't believe me ((or if you care))
one day you may call me up and hear
"I'm sorry Karl, she's fucking dead"
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