(collection of some of my poems)

you always make me smile
but only if you want something in return
i try to make it all worthwhile
but in the long run,im the one getting burned.

after you get what you came for
you treat me like i am a hoe
most of the comments i try to ignore
but sometimes they are very low.

i sit and try to be nice to you still
but then you think you can walk all over me
how do you think you would feel
if i treated you like you were nothing?

i used to love with every beat of my heart
but your taking a knife to it now
maybe it is best we are apart
there is no turning back now.

my heart feels like it was torn to shreads
after you promised to keep it from harm
still wanting you is something i dread
and now i have to keep my heart on alarm.


I said your what makes me smile
but your also what makes me frown
all of the things really start to pile
but if you were to stop and care the feeling may go down.

I gave you my heart before
but you just pushed it away
I thought i didnt love you anymore
but now I know that love never changed.

I'm not going to let you break it this time around
so i'm going to end it right now
my emotions wont be found
then again most people just dont know how.

People say that they love me
but they're just killing me a little inside
they thing that what i have is free
but when they're not looking is when i"m going to hide.


I ask myself why alot
but rarely get an answer
like why can't i be happier
but maybe that's not the way i was taught.

I tell myself when i get up in the morning
that today i will be happy just for you
something always goes wrong
and mostly there is nothing i can do.

I want to be the one to make you smile
when you have had a hard day
why can't i have that chance?
isn't there a way?

when the world seems like it's falling apart
i want to comfort you and make you at ease
why cant't i be your shoulder to cry on?
why can't i be there for you to please?






I can never explain my emotions to well,so i sit and write it in ink.I have so much i have wanted to tell but now i think I'll write it instead.I want to tell you I love you and have for some time now.I tried to hate you and forget you and sometimes even tried to be mad at you.The fact is though is that i could never hate yo.I used to think that you didn't care and only wanted me when you wanted your share.Some people may say I have missed my chance with you,and although that may be true you'll always be in my heart.This may sound corny but it's what i feel inside.I'm tired of always keeping it all bottled in and tired of having to hide.As long as your around I'll be fine.Just talking to youmakes me warm inside and when I'm down you make me laugh.Not one of those fake laughs but somethign that makes my day.You may no know me that well but this i know is true,I have loved you since we were young,and day by day that love grows stronger.Other girls may say they love you but just remember this...where were they when you were growing up?
and did they love you then?
fourteen years of loving somebody is a long time.And no matter what happens I will always love you.Every heart beat i have is because of you,every breath i take is for you,and every time you see me smile know it's because of you!!!