If Only I had known that morning
how sad the day would be
the news that was to come my way
If only I could see.
The worst moment of my life
began that very day
the day that they would tell me
"Incompatible with life" they say
They asked if I would terminate
I immediately said "NO"
I wanted you as long as possible
until you had to go.
That awful day I had dreaded
but also excited me
I finally got to hold you close
to my heart, you had the key.
almost nine years later
you still have my heart
there is nothing greater
than a love that doesn't part.
I would give anything
to have that one day back
If only I could hug you
and have you hug me back.
If only I had known
I wouldn't change a thing
for your my angel baby
my gift God did bring.
Author notes
For my angel: Caleb Michael Shockey
March 30th 1999-March 30th 1999
October 28th 1998
This was the day I was told my Baby would not live.
I pick the pink and blue awareness ribbon which signifies, birth defects, still birth, infant loss.
I lost my baby to Anencephaly, a birth defect that is incompatible with life.
In a list
A contest entry
- Sleep In Peace (Baby Picture Inspiration) by Girl With Guitar.
1100 points, ended November 24, 2007, 35 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Tell me you feelings!!! by fire angel.
300 points, ended November 13, 2007, 33 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Remembering the Love by x Gemini x.
300 points, ended March 21, 2008, 8 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Sweetheart my heart just bleeds for you. I cannot imagine knowing the babe you carry is to be born already dead.
I was given your name by "Sunflower." I just lost my 5 week old granddaughter a month ago and am going through a very hard time myself. When she told me about you I wanted to stop by. You have my heartfelt prayers for I know this is a pain that will never heal.
If you ever want to visit my page, I have a list titled "Chloe Lane" you can read about my angel there.
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Tears fills my eyes for you
I can not think of any other pain worse than the loss of a child My heart truly goes out to you and to give you the strength to carry on and know that a child so pure lives not only in heaven but in Gods home indeed
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This is a very touching writ... although sad, it shows also joy. I can see from the product that this piece was written from the heart. Never do we have to loose love for one so dear. Memories become that fountain of youth that forever enbues us with that presence of fondness. Thank you for sharing a writ so personal and dear.
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i love you auntie huggggggggs you tight
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Aww such a wonderful write. As a mother myself my heart goes out to you.
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"almost nine years later
you still have my heart
there is nothing greater
than a love that doesn't part."
So true.
Amazing write, I see you've entered a few pieces and usually I don't like to have multiple poems from one author in the finalists list but I can't help it here. Beautiful poems, all of them. I'm choosing my favourite few for the finalists, but all of them deserve praise.
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Thank you...these poems are my way of letting my angel know how much my heart aches for him and my love runs deep. Thank you so much for commenting. You are very kind
many blessings to you
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awwwwwww could feel the pain and anxiety in this write. a sad day indeed. a life is precious, especially the young. thanks for sharing this lovely memory of your son. I had a brother, that also live brifly and then died. My mother died when i was 6. death is always painful.
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I am sorry about your Mom. I have never endured anything harder in my life than losing my first born son. I miss him terribly thanks for your comment
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This is so emotional, and must have been so hard to write, as this made me cry. It must be so hard to lose a baby, a part of you. I am so sorry for your tragic loss. He is surrounded by God's angels now. Beautifully written. Best of luck in my contest & thank you for sharing your most precious poem.
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Very lovely, even though so sad. Nice wording and emotion and reads nicely.
I am so sorry for your loss.
blessings
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They asked if I would terminate
I immediately said "NO"
this is very bi polar a few confusions between the positives and the negatives perhaps look at those combinations compared to the flow, yet other wise this is very charming, for choice makes life... the emotions themselves at the time must of been so intensely storm, and that nose is soo cute ...
anyheys good bless you,
with chocolates and wine
-JAS
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This is such a tender and loving write. It breaks my heart. It is honest and well-written!
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Thank you...I love this poem myself
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Wow such a sad piece, but so great. What a lovely tribute to your child. Such sadness you must still be going though and i feel your pain throught this poem in your words. I cried as i started to read your poem as the pain all seemed to come alive, truely an amzing writer you are to provoke such emotion in such few words. Rhyme scheme worked really well too.
Keep penning my dear friend xxx
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‘I would give anything
to have that one day back
If only I could hug you
and have you hug me back…’ this is so sad…very simple but I think this stanza is in every heart of all those people who are missing their loved ones in heaven…God bless you and your angel baby…
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A very emotional poem, even as I was reading the first lines I felt a sense of near-dread, the picture coupled with that stanza set you up for the tragedy. I felt that you bared your soul, so to speak, in this poem, something which, even for a poet is often hard to do, there is usually some sort of veil, to leave the reader unsure of what exactly they have read, but I felt that this was true and honest, deeply thought-provoking, as death is and very sad. A well written, heartfelt peice. xxx
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awwww
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it's the saddest thing is that people who really apreciate life are forced to go through this
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Very tender.
This is such a tender and soul felt poem. Your words touch the very heart of anyone who reads it. It is truely exqusite. You have captured in your words what most people could never find the words to say. There is nothing more heartrending than to lose a child and I am glad that you have the spiritual depth to accept this in the way that you have. It shows what a very deep and personal bond you have with God and your child. This is beautiful.
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This is really a beautiful poem thank you for sharing a bit of your heart with me.Goodluck to you in the comtest.Best wishes and much love.This is my favorite background
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Ah, what a beautiful poem!
I am so sad for you losing your baby... You are the mother of Heaven's Child. 
The best little spirits go there. You have special insight now, having experienced this pregnancy and birth.
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I wouldn't have wanted to be in your shoes, this is heartbreaking, and tender. I loved the sweetness of your ending...excellent write, beautiful job!
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