Explain

Describe everything slowly.
I feel stress, I feel stressed...I am Stressing
I place the fabric between my thumb and fore finger
Trying to remember how you smell,
how everything smelt.
You would always talk about how you drove past
that Nabisco factory, and became addicted to what it was like
That you became addicted to driving down to see me
because you liked the mountain air.
I think I am addicted to the menthol
that I hid from you so you would quit smoking
and the way you would tickle me,
even if I said I hated it
Describe everything backwards.
I hate you, and I can't stand how you try to figure out what wrong
I won't tell you and I really can't let you in like this
You have such ugly[cute really] hat hair
and I can't stand the way you say that you love me.
Saying it back sometimes hurts me
Sometimes makes me feel like a lie
because I know that someday it will be over
Describe everything realisticly.
I miss you horribly
Your eyes as I try to remember are the sweetest things I have ever seen
and dispite what everyone else is telling me, I am not ready to let you go
I don't really know if I love you
or if I will ever kiss you again
because for some reason, you find it comfortable
to forget me, and I find it comfortable to not let go
of everything good that has happened
I really wish I could understand all the bad
and just Explain it all to you...
for real.