No time like now

something i've learned is
Theres no time like the past
and no time like now
and you just have to make the good times last


They go away all to quickly,
as your life shatters in front of you
watching it happen, its almost like a dream
and its all you can do

You can tell yourself its perfect
and that nothing will ever change or go wrong
you can keep up the appearence of happieness
while writing secret, depressing songs.

You can tell him that your happy
that you've both moved on
you can tell her that you do like her personality
when really its all wrong.

You dont tend to realize
that its too late
until your brother goes and marries
the one girl you hate

You dont realize your life
is going to down hill and turning for worse
and all you can do
is step back, cry and curse.

When the addictions kick in
and the pain is masked
with drugs, sex,lies, cutting and music
you just wish someone would ask.

You wish that someone
would pretend to care
you wish that someone, anyone
could be there.

but you know they all have their own things to deal with
and you know its just waisted time
so you sit there writing a poem
thinking of stupid catchy rhymes.

Knowing that anyone who reads it
might just ask, but not really understand or care
and its just one of those things
that your spirits just not there