Cycle

my heart is vomiting
words I'll never say
and my eyes are crying
but I know I'll be okay

and as my tears are falling
and I'm weeping all alone
I realize its much better
with out you, on my own.

if the world was perfect
Id be forever in your arms
but I know its much too late now
i must silence the alarm

routine says its time for you
to magically re-appear
and what I'm just not sure of
is if you'll ever be sincere

I know deep down somewhere
lost in your rugged pride
you care beyond a reasoning
but it will always be denied

I know you could do better
and I know that I could too
but your all thats in my heart
as I type the words "I love you"

sometimes the world plays tricks
and is much too cruel to bare
my mind says its time to give up
and end this childish affair

I'm not saying there's not others
who Ive let enter my heart
and though your the one I want
Its time for a fresh start

I know that if I let you
you'll continue on for years
this never ending cycle
of leaving scars as souvenirs

I know that if I let you
you'd never fully leave
and Id believe that things were better
Id pretend to be naive

I gave you three whole years
the best times of my life
we promised a perfect future
and you promised Id be your wife

its funny how things end
as quickly as they begin
you waste so much damn time
and it means nothing in the end

time heals and time passes
and the memories start to fade
names become a blur
and romance is so cliche

then you meet a fresh face
a new victim; next in line
and the cycle does continue
like you were forever fine

suddenly you realize
the previous was just a preview
this love is the real love
its the one that will stay true