Screming Pain **It is a need right now**

What is love?
It's just a word tossed around.
I should know.
My friends say he used me.
It was only for the sex, they say.
Were they right?
I gave him my virginity.
I gave him all of me.

Screw love.
i was never meant for it.
Take back your promises.
I don't like your lies.
You knew we weren't together.
You used me didn't you?
I thought I trusted you.

I thought he was my soulmate.
I was blind.
Was it his sweet words?
Was it his soft voice?
Could it be when he came with me?
He left his home to be with me.

I was so fucking blind.
It hurts.
He was my savior of the broken.
I was the beatened and the damned.
Love, what is it really?
Nothing.
Nothing but shit.
Maybe I say it because it was him.

Teach me to say i love you and mean it.
I meant it but did he?
No.
He made it obvious when he said he loves me...
as a sister and nothing more.

I'm done.
Done with love and pain.
I'm gunna take back my heart.
Or whats left of it.
I'm gunna find a new person one day.
Someone who honors his vows.
When I marry he will be there.

Standing as my brother hopefully.
I want to stay friends.
It's all he wants.
Fine by me.

Thank you.