Once Again, Not A Poem

This isn't a poem, I just need to talk again. I'm so overwhelmed and I feel like I am falling back into my old ways...and that's the last place I want to be. My mom has cancer again. This time isn't intestinal cancer...and I'm not sure she's gonna make it...it's pretty advanced. And I got married back in April, and I'm finally working on getting into my very own home with my husband. My husband, wow what a subject. He's put me thru hell...literally. Less than a month after we got married, I found out he was cheating on me up to at least 5 days after we got married...with a well known whore. And it was unprotected...and he's my husband, so you know we've had unprotected before. So i'm kinda concerned I might have an STD bc I have some things going on female wise. But I go to the OBGYN the 5th...so we'll see. And back in January, I did something stupid. It was actually considered date rape. I don't remember what happened. I mean I was drugged and the last thing I remember was making out with the guy and then getting super sleepy. So I always have that in the back of my head. There seems to be more bills coming in than money. Ugg...I don't even know where to start with all this. I mean I could go on for years...im just so stressed out. Will I live through this THIS time around???