stepping forward

Two steps forward,
three steps back.
Never going to make any progress.
Life is set on a grey scale,
never any hope, or color.
This is just personal.
I am on the other side of the rainbow.
It's not that great,
never color, no light.
All just shades of grey then straight to black.
Two steps forward,
but there is still something holding me back.
Spinning in circles, i'm dizzy and confused.
Why do I take those steps back?
I need to find my way back to the hope,
back to the side of the rainbow everyone else is on.
Those three were my last steps back.
I need to continue one step at a time, forward never back again.