the 3 of us.

What a confusing situation,
ive done it all again,
like im asking for the worst,
falling for my friends.

You are my best friend,
and i love very much,
but i also love your ex,
so basically im fucked.

She is with me now,
although you don't know,
yet tonight i nearly kissed you,
and the confusion just grows.

I sm the happiest with you,
yet also the worst,
in love and hate,
i feel like i may burst.

No one will know this,
as i feel such a fool,
falling for you two,
an emtional wall...

She is amazing,
and makes me feel good,
yet with you am whole,
all so misunderstood.

But you two once were,
completely in love,
so loving either of you,
is a punishment from above.

As in our relationship,
it is always with us 3,
no matter who im with,
the other's there with me.

You both love me,
and i having feelings too,
so as you can understand,
i don't know what to do.

You both could hate me,
for being like this,
but honestly my darlings,
this isn't what i wish.

Everytime i kiss her,
i feel you there too,
your in her head,
and everything i do.

yet when i hold you,
your there in my arms,
i know its just us,
under cupid's charms.

Its like ive been dead,
my heart so broken and black,
now im falling in love,
at the drop of a hat.

I hate you both,
for doing this to me,
obviously you didn't know,
but whats meant to be?

I want to escape,
but i really cant,
to loose love again,
would tear my heart.

You both are too lovable,
its too easy to fall,
but why with both of you,
just to shatter it all?

I feel self destructive,
doing this at all,
im going to loose you both,
its just time before i fall.

I just want you toknow,
not that you ever can,
that i love you both so,
though i am fucking damned.

Getting so angry with me,
cant i just have her?
but you are always there,
and my minds just a blur.

I knwo she thinks of you,
when shes sleeping in my arms,
and i know you think of her,
when i keep you safe from harm.

Im killing myself internally,
being involved with either,
but i love you both,
i can't loose either.

So i will have to figure it out,
too long has it been inside,
i know it wont go away,
and i know i can't hide.

But for now i will sit,
and stay quiet and wait,
for me to get my heartbroken,
and meet my illearnt fate.