To Know Myself

I sit here all weak and weary,
the morning is so dreary,
as I look out to the darkened morning sky,
the stars in the sky they dance with a purpose,
the dance a cross the sky in pure ecstasy, 

I gaze into the oblivion of the universe,
many things they cross my mind,
like who I am and what I'm here for,
do we have a purpose in this big world, 

many times I've thought that I knew myself,
I thought I knew myself so well, 
I gander into the night sky,
it makes me wonder if I know who I really am, 

am I writer,
or am I just another teenager addicted to poetry, 
am I a lover or am I fighter, 
is this lighter's flame just another metaphore,
for my life and how it's going to run out, 

Am I just a tortured artist the hides within,
am I just a lost soul that's wandering,
around in life like it was a lost road that never ends, 
do I really who I am or am I just lost within myself, 

I try to search my soul to find out the answers,
my soul seems to be as blank as my mind,
my eyes connect with the universe above, 
am I big and as vast as the universe above? 

Is this body just another shell,
will no one really know me,
will they really understand,
I don't even understand me, 

Is life just a long endless road,
that seems to never end and get longer everyday,
they throw obstacles in front of the road,
and make you have to dodge them,
don't they know how hard it is? 

In the end I'll look at myself in the mirror,
I'll wonder who the man is that I see,
I wear so many masks and so many crowns,
that I can't see the real me anymore,
forever lingering in myself,
forever like a ghost blending into the night,
I don't know myself,
don't know if I will ever know myself,