The crimson tide of my veins
Carries sorrow to my heart
Would that I could stop the beating
To feel no pain
To feel no shame
I gave to her a part of me
Not freely did I then
Perhaps, in other lives
I had been looser
Faster
Apathetic to the consequences
I went in with my eyes wide shut
Clinging to emotions that never were
I gave her a part of me
She gave me a need to grieve
A reason to cry
To just want to die
To feel unwanted
Yet again
I am not expendable God damn you!
I have feelings
Why does no one realize
That I am human too
I cry when I hurt
I hurt with these lies
That people so freely
Spread across my life
If only, if only
My life wasn’t so
If only my life
Could be nothing at all
Living yet life
I’m not living at all
Into the pit of my sorrows I fall
And only the one
Who has pitted me thus
Could pull me out
With love and with trust
But trusting her love
Is like trusting the moon
To crumble and fall
To the ocean in June
When surely I know
That will never be so
Just as her love
I will never know
Author notes
Its odd, the feeling of being the broken and the breaker as well. Breaking one's heart and then having yours broken. I'd never stopped to think of the consequences of my actions...until now. Re-reading this poem about someone who broke my heart. Someone...like me. A heart breaker.
Oh, and love is like a photo.
A contest entry
- heartbreaker by ExpectingMommy18.
550 points, ended September 22, 2007, 34 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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wow this is truly amazing...i like how you combined the things and how my contest went right with how you are feeling...thank you so much for entering and good luck!!
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Fantastic, great flow you have going there, good luck!
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um...commenting on my own poem
sorry. I just thought it was funny that I chose the colors I did. I didn't notice but the poem is in red and has the word "crimson" in it. talk about obvious. but an accident I assure you. hehe.
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