If I could train my mind
you'd never enter my thoughts
but that won't happen so
you consume my life lots
questions unanswered, day after day
am I ever a subject
whenever you pray
do you worry, perhaps
or are you content
did you shed a tea
each time that I went
am I the blood
you long to pour out
am I the reason
you live in doubt
forbidden to contact
the pain is intense
they angry words spoken
no visit since
denial I lived in
until not long ago
before I thought
but did not truly know
that time never heals
a desire to be needed
memories etched in stone
the way I was treated
to love you now
sounds so absurd
I resent not only your love
but your every word
to hate you is close
but can never compare
to the shame and guilt
I'll always wear
so much like you
and different more still
the fantasy of family
but hatred so real
dead to my heart
every emotion I feel
no need to apologize
for you I can't heal
to remain until death
what I feel for you
I'll never forgive you
that statement rings true
live all of your life
but be warned to look
someday I'll find you
and take back what you took.
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