Dead and Alone

I feel dead and alone, my head is my home, and simply cant find a way out.
Do I run and escape, pretend fun, and parades is all that this life is about
I feel angered and used, like a stranger confused, about where and what he became
as I lay down to weep, no lady lays down with me, and no softer would she whisper my name.

Take back the heart, and leave me the mind, my tears have run myself dry
I cannot find more reason to stay with this heart-beating, if only it wishes to die
I've tried, and tried, and tried again, sought help from others, confide to friends
and though I've tried, and tried to mend, it simply will-not-do.

Take back the heart, take it, leave nothing, wipe everything, I need no memories
she, he, him, her, them, us, we, no more ..
No more I say, no more. and yet, it still knocks.

I feel dead and alone, my head is my home, and simply cant find a way out.
Do I run and escape, pretend fun and parades is all that this life is about.
I feel torn and confused, so un-normal and used, that I cannot justify my belief
did I love, did I lose, did I have choice to chose, did I, was I, truly me.