In my heart i know it is true
I could never be like that to you
Straining against the pain
of seeing you every day
close enough to smell your
ocean deoderant
but never enough to touch your heart
i want nothing more than to be apart
of your whole world
but i am just the other girl
So i'll give you a high five
as you teach me to strive
giving my best every day of my life
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um...yeah...i am thankfull this person i am paining over does not have an account here...if he saw this poem our relationship as friends will be over. i just hope that i dont start resenting him for the very same things i love about him. notice i said paining over instead of crush, cuz when ever i get a crush it is on a guy i am too afraid to aproach cuz i dont want things to change between us and i dont want him to see me differently. i hate having to vent about things like this...but i guess it is better than never meeitng him, or never getting to know him, or letting it eat me up inside. i'm scared i WILL resent him..cuz i am starting to do that to protect my heart. but as much as it hurts i dont want to stop. its the kind of pain that is unbarable but feels good at the same time. but you know what, i would not change a thing about how i met him and how i got to know him. he has given life new meaning for me. i am soo much happyer with him as my friend than any thing else
~ love the rain ~
p.s. i dont know if i should tell him or not...cuz he has a soul mate, and i respect him to much to get in the way of that.
Please tell me what you think
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OMG *Makes me wanna cry*
"In my heart i know it is true
I could never be like that to you"
i loved thes lines... this poem is so sad and so true ifeel all the pain in this poem.. i just hope you feel better soon cos it sucks when you have to feel like that over some guy especially wen u know its not gonna change
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I always felt honesty was the best policy- which got me into trouble often. I had a "crush" on this guy for like 4 years, but i wouldn't really call it a crush- i actually fell in love with him. And he had a girlfriend already- of course. Well, for awhile i just couldn't help but flirt with him and like him- and i thought he liked me back b/c he did the same things. Well, sometime before school ended that year i wrote him a letter telling him exactly how i felt (i can only imagine what it felt like for him to read it- probably a little scary, knowing myself back then) And even though the sentiment wasn't shared between us, i felt alot better at least telling him how i felt. I even told him i didn't expect anything to come of it- i just wanted him to tell me he didn't like me back- but he couldn't. so we sort of stopped being friends for a little bit but then things returned back to normal- and by the time he was single i didn't even want to be in a relationship w/ him anymore. But i still think about it sometimes.
I guess what i'm saying is maybe you should tell him, instead of decieving him and yourself.
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wow, i never thought about it as being deceiving. i think i can live with never telling him though. its like, i really like the way things are even though it sucks. its like....watching some one from afar, and knowing that if you were any closer to that person then would change how you saw that person, and would rather just watch than influence them at all. *shrugs* i am glad you and your friend worked things out though. by talking about it, i am that much closer to letting go and just being friends. thank you elizabeth!
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aw, your welcome, sweetie. Anything i can do to help a friend. I mean, someday you are going to find someone fantastic, and they'll be the one to notice you first. It's all about finding someone who will love you for all you are as a person, and hopefully you'll love them back. Best wishes.
~elizabeth~
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Just don't act differently, it will screw things up, trust me that happened to me and it completely killed our friendship and what relationship we had left, let things take their course.
Well written piece though, nice job.
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thanks *droops* i wont tell him...cuz..it would fuck things up to much. i am soooo gratefull that he is my friend...i dont want to screw that up...and thanks..your totally right...it would mess thing up. and our relationship would be broken beyond mending. =^^=
~ love the rain ~
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