Thats all that counts.

I remember as he and I lay in his bed, and I told him, I will never leave you...
He promised we'd always be friends; He swore on his life..
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled
Life is just days unless you live.
We were always near each other even as friends, and yet so far apart.
He is nothing but memories to me now, memories that fade away with time.
Feelings that no longer can be felt, that are no longer desired, no longer needed.
You can never begin to understand..
When something that close to you vanishes, it leaves you confused, angry, frustrated, sad, lonely, insecure, and unsure.
You begin to fight for things that don't make a difference.
You begin to cry for things that don't even matter.
You assure yourself that everything will be alright, but know in your heart, it won't.
If I could go back, to I don't know any night when he was happy.
And just...pause it, and smile to myself, as if watching my lives movie.
Just to see that hope in his eyes, the love, I once knew.
That's the only way I go through my life, remembering what I had..
Not what I have nor what I could have, just what I had.
It's like a story book without an ending.
I swear, if I could go back and do it again I would, and I would change EVERYTHING!
I would never cheat, I would never lie, nor steel.
I don't even care about the outcome..
Just to know I did it right, would be satisfaction enough in itself.
I know not of what the future holds, but nothing could ever compare.
Maybe I would still be with him, maybe not.
Either way, what's done is done. You can't change the past.
You can only try to improve your current situation, and future, learn from your mistakes, and trust yourself..
When you fall in love, no matter if its one week, or one year, stop yourself, look into his or her eyes, ever chance you get, and tell him you love him every day, week, month, year, just as often as possible, and mean it with all your heart..
Remembering how happy I once was makes me go on through my hard days, and that's all that counts...that's all that really counts.