you will never see, never again.

I can't bear to live my life the way I do any longer. I live with people who don't even know who I am inside. I want the world to know my story. I feel so much pain inside, and yet all I can do is smile and say that everything is just all right. Well I'm sick of feeling this way. I am ready to explode within myself. There is nothing that would make me happier then just to forget all the people who've wronged me. So, if you are a good person, and you know that I love you, then speak out. Speak out and tell me that you forgive me. Forgive me, for all the wrong I have done. Forgive me for all the tears I have caused. Forgive me for all the pain I have dished out to you. Forgive me for ruining your life. Forgive me for all the ill actions you have endured. Forgive me for taking away your dignity. Forgive me for speaking in ways you never could understand. Forgive me for loving you. Forgive me for caring. Forgive me for trying so hard to keep you. Forgive me for taking so many days to say I loved you. Forgive me. Lord only knows how much I deserve to be forgiven. Lord only knows. I want and need you more then you could ever imagine. I don't know what I have done to you, but something tells me it's nothing good. You and I haven't spoken recently; but I hear your voice within my head, telling me wrong from right. You are the reason I am alive. You can take away all my pain, just by being in my head. Never leave me. You have left me physically, though I can still feel you. You have walked away, though I can still see you in the shadows at times, if I look good enough. I search for your face in the darkness; I search for your silhouette. I long to see you around every corner, every walkway. I don't know who I am, who I am without you. You are the reason that I am who I am today. That is something I could never forget. I am thankful for you; however, you will never see. Never again.