You Don't

I'm so alone,
a black pavement ahead.
A journey to be had,
no shadows but my own around.

This is my life,
this dark board I balence on.
When ever I stagger or fall,
a sting comes to my chest.

I have fallen alot lately,
my blackness scattered with blanks.
Those are dents or mistakes in my life,
either my heart or my world.

Ever mistake I seem to learn from,
each pain without consequese.
But one marks stands from the rest,
a spot as big as my shadow following me.

It may just be huge to me due to the happening,
the past still close on my tail.
But this mistake still follows me,
and will stay with me for years to come.

Do you want to know,
the mistake that haunts me?
It seems so stupid to the naked eye,
but to me it was the mistake I still regret.

I hurt myself,
I hurt her more importantly.
I showed her my friendship is inaddquit,
but I guess I deserved it.

But how do I paint this mark away,
this thing that won't go away from me?
Simple it seems,
jut say what she want to hear I guess.

But really it isn't that simple,
cause I already did that.
I said it right to her face,
no questions asked.

But do you know how bad it is,
when you friend just looks you in the eyes with hate?
No,
you probley don't.

You don't know how I feel.