"I"

Sometimes i wonder if i’m all alone
In this world i see faces
Hear voices
But i stare into vacant places.
Sometimes i just don't want to go home
In my mind i have lies
Stored memories
Nobody knows why i cried.
The real reason i died inside.

And I need somebody to know i'm not OK
And it's still difficult facing another day
But i wake up smiling, hyper and alive
But really it's false hope that fuels my drive.
The bus shows up on time and there i'm stood
If i had the strength i know i could.
Walk away.

Still i don’t feel the letter “i” is worth a capital
Because i’m not that important really
Have “I” any right
Don’t deserve the start of a sentence clearly.
Looking in the mirror makes me depressed
It makes me actually sick
What have I become?
What’s beneath my skin so “thick”?

And I need somebody to know i'm not OK
And it's still difficult facing another day
But i wake up smiling, hyper and alive
But really it's false hope that fuels my drive.
The bus shows up on time and there i'm stood
If i had the strength i know i could.
Walk away.

Inside i’m this child screaming
And i’m still here pleading
Looking at their empty faces
Staring at the fast passing places
And he never did say goodbye,
And i guess i’ll never know why.
He has a new family, new life;
two more children with his wife.
And here we are all alone
When all we want is our daddy home.

We wrote lots of letters to santa clause
Prayed and prayed on our bedroom floor.
For what?
It’s them now.

The person that rescued me from all his fights
Stood up to my dad because he knew we were right;
is fading right before our eyes.
Please Grandad, please don’t die.
I don’t want to have to say goodbye.
With those wires sticking out of you
It doesn’t seem right.
I wish your heart was fine.
I wish there was some way to help
I love you.