[ the problem with always being a conformist is that when you're trying to change the system from th

the problem with always being a conformist is that when you're trying to change the system from the inside out... its not you who changes the system... its the system that will change you eventually.... there is nothing wrong with compromise in a speific situation but compromising yourself in a situation is a completly different story....a concept no one ever seems to grasp is...the devil used to be an angel too...theres no diversity and we are all just burning in the melting pot...success is psychological to everyone...except for me... it's logical also...i make it both......winning and losing is apart of the same double headed monster...because even though you survived through the struggle and war that made you who are... you still continue to look at yourself through the eyes of the people that hate you...people are cowards..people are heroes...people are slaves...you escaped the plantation and started a new life somewhere else?....your just a coward.... heroes are the ones who escape, come back, and hang the owner...

...its ammusing how i have the heart of a transcendentalist and people still assume insecurites eat away at me like they do with everyone else...

...if there is a soul who is willing to take others lives along with their own, why give them the death sentence after they are captured?...why are there such situations as attempts at suicide when no one else is around?...why try to analyze all of these so called "complex" theoretical beings the same way and only look for one answer, but at the same time put them into a myriad of various categories?.... irony follows everything.... even karma wheather it be good or bad...

...consider this a following agreeing with & contradicting myself, irony, and karma...

......you odious vagrant...you were a waste of life to me....i hope you read this..by no chance at all was this an atrophy of time writing ....the small period of time i've spent writing this was more meaningful to me, then the 9 month period of time we were together...you meant nothing to me...