Death Will Claim Our Hearts

My hands are shuddering as I know
It's so cold outside
I can be anyone
But I'm so sick and tired
I've just lost the will and fallen
To far behind
This glass is empty now
And I'm sick and tired of lying there at night
Waking up to feeling my eyes exposing
These tears I've held in for so long
Did you think I had enough
When I showed you my secret
When I cried into your arms
I've lain awake for so long
Playing scenarios over and over again
Of how my death would work out
If it wasn't my fault
If I was shot or hit by a stray car
But I know that won't happen
But I can't leave you all behind
I love you all too much
And yet death seems to wraps its arm around me
And whisper in my ear
As I lie trying to sleep
Or I stand as water rushes over my shoulders
I know I'm not the only one
Who thinks like this
But I'm not reaching out for their opinion
I'm tired of helping those others
Who have no genuine problem
But it makes me love those who do even more
Unstitched hearts with faulty
Release buttons lying here at the bottom of this crevice
Which is mine which is yours
Death will grip them anyway
And I don't need a piece of muscle to love you my dear
I just need this emotion running through me
And maybe then I can hold on
But I promise you I'm trying