Just been thinking..

The fight within someone only ceases to exist when all around them also give up the fight. The thought that so many people around you can effect your life so deeply is beyond belief. We may not think that our lives have become what they are because of other people, but it's true.

If a single person grew up alone, shut off from the world, their life would extraordinary. It would revolve around their space, the feeling of being able to do whatever they choose to do, the feeling of true freedom. Yet if you took that same very person and let them grow up in the city,their whole life would be around those they lived with, the people they see everyday, the stories that fly down the streets and through the media. All this and more influences a person to be who they are. 

All the way through life people have secrets to tell, promises to break. They fall in love;get their hearts torn. When all of this is happening the people to help, the people that say those comforting words are your friends. They can return teh courage that you thoguth you had lost, but just as easily take it away from you. A person could have the strongest wil power, the greatest determination, and then they loose their closest friend to suicide. Their whole will power and determination would be lost as well. A single person can break someone's fall, but that same person can be the one that pushed them.

Our thoughts, feelings and attitudes are judged by everyone around us. People who walk past us on the street, to our best friend that we've known our whole lives. Whether we like to realise it or not, we are judged by what we have already done; yet we judge ourselves by what we can do. In the end it doesn't matter what we think we can do, its what we have already done. The worst thing is about that trademark is that you can never erase the past. One day you might be able to accept the mistake that you made, but those around you, those who know what you are trying to forget will always bring it back up, always reminding you that your mistakes are yours and are nevr going to be forgotten.

A friend always knows when there is something wring with you, something on your mind, and they wil be there in front of you trying to get you tell them, when you turn them away, they think you wont talk to them because you dont think they can be trusted so they feel rejected, then they're angry towards you, all because you didnt feel like talking. Thousands of people claim that talking about your problems helps relieve the tension that has built up; but for many, when they talk about their problems the people they tell also become involved and becomes a problem to them too. So many see that it easier to keep their troubles to themselves rather than see people close to them hurt aswell.

Reputation, drives people to do things that they know they are going to regret. go against their values and beliefs, yet even though it causes them great pain to hold their reputation up, most believe that it is better to have that reputation then to be a person that doesnt have one at all.A person can do one thing, in one small moment of their life, and that one thing can be brought up over and over again, and the person wil be driven to do it again. It might start off because they want to and belive people are looking up to them for it. Then a moment of realisation will be drawn out over a small amount of time,and in the back of their mind they know that this isnt what they want, but they go along with it just for the thrill, just to please everyone else, so that they will remain known.

Someone can say something, which will be taken in by those close by, but they forget those who are far away but still in distance to hear. This is when people take advantage of others, twist peoples words. They strive to get back at that person, using anything, any information, and any person to get what they want. Many perople would see this person negatively, but there is always two sides to every story. The only problem with these stories is that to find the true original version, one must venture on their own. When people, just two of them, start to fight, all of their friends automaically become involved. Pressured to take sides, many do, which results in them loosing another friend. Those who choose not to take sides often become so confused or wound up about the fight they end up choosing a side, or making their own side and are driven away from both of their friends. Out of this another fight emerges, trying to put the blame on someone. A vicious circle.

Friends. Who knows when you have got one. Soon as you believe that you have found one for life, one that will stick by you no matter what. You find yourself alone again, or hurting them which means you'll only end back in that circle. But without this vicous circle, we would not be who we are today and would not know of the geater thing in life.