Scent of Resistance

Suck it in, let it out.
Feelings warped and dampened.
A gentle glowing in my chest
Beats the emotions of all the rest.

Cold air whips my face.
But nothing is of matter.
I've got you, it's all about you.
I crave you, every bit of you.

The scent of resistance on my fingers
as i rest my head to sleep
to dream of holding another
My addiction to you, isn't a bother.

With each passing day
the reason for you fades
Merely a forgotten memory
a burden no longer heavy

All my focus is on satisfaction
no thoughts of the repercussions
no will to listen to the disaster

of letting you be master of my life.

I needed you when my brother hit

when he slipped into a coma

when his chances of waking were slim

you kept my tears from fall for him

The relief of stress you gave me

was something i couldn't turn from

The control of moods was refreshing

having you was clearly helping

I didn't anger for nothing anymore

My depression stopped showing abruptly

I was lighter, clearer and able to live again

Cigarettes, my addiction, my regret, my friend.