Cry the Tears You Made Me Drown In

"I hate you, now who will understand you", she said.
"It is you who doesn't understand things here", he said.
"Go away Nick, I never want to see you again."
"Tara if you didn't love me, you couldn't hate me."

Nick walked away but then turned back for a moment.
"You will regret this Tara, maybe not today, but some day those words will haunt you."
Tara scoffed, "Leave now."
Nick trying to curb a sob said, "I want you to cry the tears you are making me drown in."

Nick ran to his car and then drove away.
"What is that suppose to mean", Tara said aloud.
A month had passed and her thoughts turned to Nick's last words.
All of a sudden a shooting pain hit her chest.

"What is going on, I can't breathe", Tara said as she began to hyperventilate.
Nick's voice over: "I want you to cry the tears you are making me drown in."
The next thing Tara knew, she was on the floor doubling over in pain and crying.
"Nick, Nick come back", she screamed but Nick was nowhere to be found.

She rolled up into a ball by her bed wondering why she would be crying for Nick.
I don't trust Nick anymore he betrayed me, all he wanted was to possess me.
He doesn't understand the loneliness deep within, I am just abandoned property.
"Why didn't you fight harder for me Nick?"

(Tara's flashback)

The first time I met you I was abrasive.
There was snickering in the background, I muttered damn it all under my breath.
People considered me weird for not socializing with others.
It wasn't because I didn't want to love or trust others, I just didn't know how.

You pursued me and I rejected you over and over again.
However you never stopped, you made another effort and eventually I fell for you.
We went out on dates together and you bought me little trinkets that I still treasure.
I thought we were meant to be together forever.

(Present Day)

All of that changed when the person I saw before me turned out to be a savage beast.
You put your hands all over me, licked my neck, and expected me to be grateful.
You are just like the rest only lusting, not loving.
How can you expect me trust you, when you act like that?

Still my words of venom poisoned any chance of reconciliation.
Even if I had the nerve to call him, he wouldn't respond to my plea.
The worst thing about this is admitting Nick was right.
I am sitting on the wet, tear-stained floor continuing to cry the tears you made me drown in.