What

WHAT..?? Why you staring at me like that..?
what did you say?? You think that I'm fat??
Fuck off.. thats sad, go away you dont know me!!
How can you stand a chance.. I cannot even see?
Think my images describes me??
I have dreads, I'm not black..
so how can me being fat tell you who I am?

I eat because of who I have become,
The food makes the pain a little more numb..
Sad I know, but how can you understand?
I am what I am.. you don't have to like it?
I sure as hell dont, and I have too live this shit!


See these scars, yes the ones on my arm..
I made them you see, its called self harm..
I'm over that now.. I don't do that anymore,
I don't do drugs, been a long time since I scored,
But eating oh yes, thats how I abuse me,
why shouldn't I.. abusing me is free..
They all did you know, they all had a go..
Its my turn now.. abuse myself
make me ugly outside, so the me inside can hide..


I couldn't keep my body safe and that destroyed my soul..
But now there is no way in hell I will let that show.
You can judge me and think me a glutton ..
I dont care, you can stare you cant see my emotions.
There buried inside under a ton of fat..
Its ok, you dont care for beauty outside
I am the best I can be for all I've endured
And people who know me .. love me
and thats all I can care for until I am cured!!!!!