Watch the roller-coaster of thoughts
Twisting and turning around the track
Taking me high, then taking me down
I wish I could turn it off sometimes
But the switch seems to be
Stuck in the top speed slot
You see I suffer rapid mood bi-polar
And some doctors don't understand
As they've only ever seen the lows
Talking to them only makes me anxious
And that delays my return to level ground
The lucky few who have seen
My rapid change from low to high
Often just assume I was faking
My depressive episode
In order to seek attention
Add to all of this adjustment disorder
As I do not cope with the stress of change
Recently up-heaved and displaced from my home
Due to flash flood waters
Forcing myself and my carer to share
A small one bedroom flat with my mother
I long for the spaciousness
Of a three bedroom home again
Thoughts of my torrid childhood
Churn constantly through my mind
Along with all of the above
So I do my best everyday
To live a life that's happy and full
Medication helps a lot
But I have found immersing
Myself into craft hobbies
And challenging myself to try new things
Helps to keep me sane.
Author notes
this is the way i see my illness
A contest entry
- Mental Afflictions by SummerlandRayne.
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Thankyou so much I never could have written so powerfully about what it feels like to be bi-polar you just put my life on paper thank you i added you as a favorite. I to have bi-polar, as well as ODD.ADD Multiple personality disorder, anxiety. Thank you for finally talking abot what it is like
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i haven't read a poem that details the way i feel 99 percent of the time as well as this one does. I to suffer from rapid cycling bipolar, plus ptsd, and now they think i might also have borderline personality disorder, so its good to read something coming from someone who understands how it feels. Well done
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I have a close friend who suffers from bipolar and I've seen the extremity of his highs and lows. He can be high for a year and then low for a year and it's distressing to watch when he's low and amazing to know him when he's high because he's so energetic and dynamic. I'm glad you've found an outlet for your energy in your creative pursuits and I hope you keep it up.
Peace Georgia
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I think I understand a lot of this, much to my distate... it's hard to admit that you have an illness of this sort and you have shown great courage in doing so... well done and good luck to you in the future
Thank you for taking the time to enter your favourite prewrite in this contest, I wish you the very best of luck
Karen -
This is a most honest poem! You have truley shared some words that will help others! Thank you so deeply for this wonderfull write. Best of luck!!!!!!!!
Peace~
Az
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