Scared, Small, Lonely and Afraid

I feel I'm dead, so empty inside
how can I hide from the ones who care?
They give so much and but I stand still
drowning in pain, yet feeling unloved.

I want to reach out, but my heart hurts
It's all too much, so I walk around the edge.
They think I'm here, in today and tomorrow
but I'm lost in so many yesterday.

I have tried so hard to fight the past
to give love back, in my empty way.
I smile but it's wrong, it doesn't reach my eyes
I want so much to lie down and cry.

I will be better tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes
I'm scared, small, lonely and afraid.
I'm not sure I'm worthy but still they try
to reach my heart, which is hollowed inside.

Those hand reach out, but I can't feel touch
I've been here too long, I've forgotten so much
I must try harder, open my eyes
I'm scared to love, I'm all alone.

What worries me most is I can lie so well
To those that care, to those who believe
In all my words, In all that I do
I'm losing my will, do you feel it too?

Yet still I'm here and my heart beats still
I must be alive, at least there's that
I'll sleep now, sleep like the dead
Tomorrow is tomorrow,
There's hope in that.