Fallen Phoenix

From the ashes, my life was restored
But that doesn't matter now
I've tried not to make the same mistakes
But it always happens again, somehow
I improve so much and smile for them
But no one can ever let it fade
They can't accept the fact that I've moved on
They push me to relive mistakes I've made
Show me how bad I've screwed up
Rub it in all my face
Call me a stupid failure
Because you don't think I can change
I'm okay, I don't need your concerns
The pressure's too much to bear
Your judgement contricts my throat,
Breathing in my sweet despair
Sickened by your stubbornness
And your disappoint for my plans
You refuse to admit I'm different
Despite the Hell where I began
You are ruining everything
All I've worked to earn
You stress me to the point
That I forget what I have learned
The expectations are so hard to meet
I'm collapsing under the weight
You always talk of how I'll fail in life
When you are the one causing that fate
I don't need to be saved from myself,
I need to get away from you
You're the reason I'm so upset
I don't know how to get it through

Pull me back into my dark, sad past
Drag me down so this fall will be my last
Throw me down in the hole I've just escaped
Might as well, you say my scars can't be erased
I'm trying to claw my way out but I can't see
You look down, oblivious, smirking matter-of-factly
I'm drowning in the improvements I have faked
Sinking in the ocean of my forgotten mistakes
Seems like I'm losing all I've been learning
Somebody help me, this phoenix is burning
It's no use where I came from, I'm realizing
Fallen from the Heavens, the phoenix is dying
It doesn't matter anymore where I have been
The phoenix has fallen in the ashes again