My Suicidal Sanctuary

Sweet liquid roses
Stain my wrists
I'm trembling in fear
Shivering with pleasure
My lungs won't hold air
My heart can't beat much more
This is what it's come to
This is my suicidal sanctuary
And it feels oh so good to die.
Go ahead and watch me
This is what you wanted all along
You've struck me time after time
With your hatred
Waiting for me to finally break
Well, you have your wish
This is what it's come to
This is my redemption
And it will never be enough.
You expected me to be
Perfect and beautiful and smart
Everything I'm not
Well, I'm sorry I was born
'Cause I'm not the girl you wanted
I'm trying so hard to fix it
Just understand this is all I can do now
So this is what it's come to
This is self-hate parading as love
And it could have fooled me.
So sick of these pretend games
I swear your nose would grow an inch
Every time you said you cared
I'm sick of hiding these scars
Can you see them now?
I'm not okay
I never was
I've always been bleeding
Just as much as I am now
And this is what it's come to
This is those lies in a razorblade
And my tears flow out crimson
I can feel my energy leaving
Dark red puddles next to me
It's all dissolving
My eyes are closing for the last time
Go on and celebrate my downfall
This is what it's come to
This is my suicidal sanctuary
And it feels oh so good to die.