this numbness overcomes me

the cuts

the stabs

the knife

the pain

the blood

the loss

im going insane

the alcohol

the drugs

the numbness

the love....

wait love? fuck love...?
what the fuck am i on...?
who the fuck could truely love me? who the fuck could truely care......when im alone and dying will anyone truely be there....bleed me dry of these feelings,sliced to pieces, floor and ceiling, splattered,soaking stained with red.....my shirt my pants soaking wet.....my numbness overcomes me and loneliness engulfs me, this depressions making me crazy and yearning for emotion is driving me mad....these entities they haunt me, the ghost of the razor gently strokes me, and now my pale skin lays lifeless once again...i hear the screams but see no faces, i feel the touch but no embraces, i listen to sirens as my body is lifted into the ambulance, i hear the begging and the pleading but for what you dont really need me, as i take a final breath and lift my hand as to say goodbye...from above i see my body so broken and so empty.lying there in pieces, strapped down to that cold white board,....im done my life is over, know through it all they tried to save me but whats there to save when i was already so dead inside....., if you need me think about me, if you miss me know im here, if you want me know you have me and that now ill forever be yours ...