Two Sided Coin

Learning once again to freeze my heart over
here is the story of my life,
love never wants to be easy on me
only sapping me over and over every last drop
every last tear until I am ashamed to cry
wonder the world alone it seems
to never see the wings of a once free spirit
crawl with the shed blood, the broken bones
and the fluttering feathers of a withering hope
see in these blue orbs a dying light
a strength I have to draw from once again
the darkness is overwhelming
the white of once pure eyes
turns to the darkest pit of evil
the dark rage oozing from every pore
and the likely hood of hatred seeping out
I want to see the pain, feel it run through me
the shivers of my body
the ecstasy of the pain,
its a drug to distill my own pain
to see suffering, chained down by my snickering
see me here, I am queen of hell again
and it seems I'll never leave, no never leave
for the fiery depths of fear
are always to be my domain
my home and place of contentment
as the torture of my invigorating lust
takes control over the weak minded fools
yes, aw the sweet sensation and power
aw the strength in one single grip
as I hold them by the throat and control
every move, see me as the dark demon I hid away
be afraid, it'd make no difference in the end
for love penetrates and releases the good and bad
the lightest angel and the healer of the condemned
and the demon who would wreak her justice like a whip
yes, the two sided coin of my reality