(Personal) A Past Revealed

A flash, or a shadow
A sense, once forgotten
Trickling back slowly
Events sour and rotten

Slowly I remember
Though not exactly clear
Dreams, thoughts, memories
That come from yesteryear

A flash of pain
A scene of regret
Sometimes a smile
My own past first met

One who tries beyond what's necessary
A force I cannot understand
Opened the floodgates, made me remember
I don’t know if I should be glad

Whenever a memory finds its way in
Each time a flash comes to my mind
I freeze in wonder of how I could forget
And of the fear that memory finds

I wonder what there is left to discover
About my strange past even I don’t know
I fear there are events bigger than so far
Though I don’t know how far they might go

Slowly the holes begin to be filled
Slowly my own fill-ins crumble
Sometimes for better, sometimes for worse
Sometimes neither rise nor tumble