Trying not to love you
But it’s so damn tempting
Veins and loins futilely resisting an urge dug up
By the dangerously addicting euphoria
Of looking into your eyes
Old rhythms pounding in my head
New ones clogging up my ears
Threatening to burst my heart open
With these feelings I swore I’d fight off
Until my dying day
Dreams flooded with your voice
Memories charred by your touch
[So sweet, but not close enough.]
My imagination reeks
Of bloody tapestries stained by memories of my own self-betrayal
The fleshy curtains over my eyes ratty and clammy from a perpetual squeeze
To flush out these boiling visions
[ no use ]
I’ve beaten the odds as far as old feelings are concerned
Yet I don’t know how long it can last
How long I will hold out
Thinking like this
Feeling this way
About someone I can’t get out of my fucking head
For more than an hour at a shot
“Have I gone too far?” I ask myself
No way of knowing, unless he shuts me out.
[ And that has yet to happen. ]
First case of an experiment being controlled by its own lab rat.
[ My heart always fucks me over ]
Now if I can just be patient
Keep my sanity
And self-confidence
I might turn the tables
...unless I’m only kidding myself
Again.
My every worry drowns when I see you
My trepidations dissolve in your arms
When our eyes lock,
The tango of reality and fantasy
Only ends when one of us looks away.
Do you really need to look away?
Why break the trance?
Why?
I look at you and my senses battle the urge to
Let go.
Look at me.
Let go.
Author notes
uhm......yeah.
In a list
A contest entry
- What Ever You Want!! by GypsyEyes.
700 points, ended January 21, 2008, 44 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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WOO!
this is truely amazing....great write....good luck in the contest
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It's very beautiful and elegantly written.
And that picture kicks ass.
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Ahh, this wasn't quite what I was expecting; from the title, I thought that it was going to be about animal testing / animals in laboratories - you caught me out there!
nevertheless, although I found this hard going to read [simply because it was like a conversation going back and forth between two states of mind, but i got confused twice as to which 'state of mind' was talking, it still carried a very strong conviction, and - well done - it was a strong read
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omg..that poem was awesome... it was super mysteriously scary but i could relate!! good job
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This was a very nicely written poem. It felt dark but very true to life. I really enjoyed reading this.
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this piece is brilliantly darkly written and you express feelings many of us have but like people have said we will always keep trying won't we
well done
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This is a hard hitting piece. I have found myself in the same place once or twice. It never gets an easier but damn if we don't remain the fool to keep on trying. Well done! Keep up the great work!
♥
~TE~
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This is dark and well written. The presentation is fantastic with the colors and the picture at the top. I am not a fan of center align although i have done a few myself but it works for this poem. The bold print in the middle is not necessary in my humble opinion as the poem either stands on it's own merit or not. But that is personal preference to the writer. A little repetitive in places and could be tightened up a bit but overall very good.
Becky
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this work of art is very abstract and unique in own way.. very emotional..... what a twisted in it well done always keep them guessing thanks for sharing
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Creative
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i agree with my twin! we have both felt this! you describe it in your own unique descriptive way! i enjoyed this! great picture!!!
~NineTailedFox
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I totally get this feeling, I've never read it described like you said. It's sort of abstract but then not really at the same time. Love the emotion, the ending is so true {at least for me} This whole poem just relates so well.. good luck in my twin's contest
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Reminds me of loving someone who isn't interested.
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Wow, this is so.....so beautiful! It is amazing! I really don't know what to say that can really do justice to how this peice made me feel, I am in awe!
This part just really seemed to reach out and grab me:
"My imagination reeks
Of bloody tapestries stained by memories of my own self-betrayal
The fleshy curtains over my eyes ratty and clammy from a perpetual squeeze
To flush out these boiling visions"
So amazing and so relatable! Great write!!!!
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beauty & depth, and so brutually honest
brutal honesty and self talk, beauty mixed with rich
honest thoughts. Loved it! It flows very smoothly,
and the words of f..ck..made it sharp and jagged to keep
us in touch with your pain too. Would love to have you
choose music to go with this something haunting to give
it the perfect final touch. The imagery of your pic
and title is wonderful.
Great Job! will make sure and read more of you!
ears2hearyou
Kathleen
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Wow!
The mind of woman. YES, NO, YES, NO, maybe so, nope, possibly, absolutely not!! OH alright. Go ahead if it makes you happy. Did it make you happy? Good, I'm glad we had this talk. I'm happy too. LOOOK deeeep into my eyes, what do you see? My favorite line?
My every worry drowns when I see you
My trepidations dissolve in your arms
Oh how I loved and hated those emotions that placed me completely in the control of another. I knew it was coming, I knew it was gonna hurt and I knew I couldn't stop. Great pics. well written. Love it, Love you, com on and hurt me babe. Just kidding.>
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whoa......
talk about MERMERIZINGLY DARK! this is truly amazing and VERY well written. It flows really nicely and keeps you wanting to read more. I must say, you are quite a natural at blending this type of thing. YAY! GO YOU! KUDOS
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i like it and i knoew how you feel
following your heart when you should listen to your head
i really like the title of the poem alot!
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