I don't know

I trusted and trusted fully,
and then found the ground taken from my feet,
I found that I didn't know about life,
I hear words do things life blurs,
and I don't know who I am anymore,
Did I forget or never know?

I loved once (upon a time),
found love to be sublime,
then learned that you're temporary,
just an abandoned rest stop on the way,
I see broken hearts empty bottles burnt photos
and I don't know who I am anymore,
Did I forget or never know?

I smiled constantly years ago,
before happiness went out the window,
now my face shows no emotion
everything hidden in these eyes nobody sees,
I know frowns given curses thrown hate shown,
and I don't know who I am anymore,
Did I forget or never know?

I had friends a while (so long) ago,
found I was just a tool (a fool) to all,
learned that people pass you by,
every time I nearly die,
I see friends leave laughter follows feel abandoned,
and I don't know who I am anymore,
Did I forget or never know?

I used to know myself (a little at least),
'til I found I was somebody else,
learned that you are a bastard if you act a saint,
that you are a monster no matter what you try,
I hear words escape tears flow anger burn (me?)
and I don't know who I am anymore,
did I forget or never know?