I wanna (Love me?)

Just shut up okay
I can't take your
[pining]
and this unshielded
jealousy is overtaking,
I don't wanna know babe,
I don't wanna hear it,
I can't fucking take it.

And I wish that you
understood and didn't
talk at all sometimes,
and sometimes I just wanna
scream at you to just
shut up, but I can't
cse that's far too forwards.

And I bet you wouldn't even
understand if I lashed out
and told you how fucked
things really are, would you?
because you're oblivious
or you don't really
wanna see.

Let me fade away
fuck off you don't care,
and it doesn't matter
if you pretend anymore
cse I can't take it,
and oops I already said that,
but fuck it, I don't care.

Just twist the knife deeper,
you know what I do for a,
well an escape, fuck it,
you only make it worse,
but a promise is a promise babe,
even though I bet,
it means nothing to you.

I wanna run now,
I wanna scream to you,
why can't you hear me?
See me? feel me?
do anything, just
notice me?
but above all..

Love me?