She lived in a world of fantasy. Not the Alice in Wonderland kind...no. Here, reality distorted until it seemed the fantasy. This world, comprised of camera flashes and thinly veiled shadows, was the sort of place you thought you always wanted...but you'd want out as soon as arrive, and from this disastrous allure there is no escape.
Her former 'true' self became a mask she adopted when she needed respite from the Barbie-doll shaped bitch she told herself she'd never become. It was the face of failure, the one she saw in the mirror only in moments of pure solitude..."Momma's little boy," so vulnerable and so desperate for attention. The truth was Mother only saved 'her' so Daddy would stay. The marriage was over in nearly every respect, and Mother was never enough for him. What happened behind closed doors stayed there, and drove 'her' to this.
Plastic noses (and everything else), mannequin poses, Jack Daniels and overdoses. Her body looked better bled dry, wrists leaking onto hundred dollar hotel sheets still bearing stories of the night before.
Her only hope was that there wasn't an afterlife.
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Damned in life, what comes next-no different. Murderous lighting, oh so kissable, and the glamour that kills. Stilettos to enhance your fall, and Percocets to cushion your landing. Even in death, pain and failure are the only guiding forces. Still haunted by the past but acutely aware that nothing better lay ahead. Once she tripped over her deflated ego, it was a long fall towards a false sense of grace, and yet another to rock bottom. Scars and tracks amassed on arms, the delicate hope was thinned down with so many drugs and eventually bled out. And all this to end back where 'she' had started. Every tone of lipstick, eye shadow...a different shade of delusion.
And with that first flash, Fate sealed itself.
A contest entry
- ANYTHING, Just make it good. -->4,000 points by InfiniteCaitlin.
4500 points, ended September 2, 2007, 31 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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this was really interesting
i liked it
it was like really a story
in the form of poetry
you did a good job on this
thanks for sharing
thanks for entering
good luck!
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interesting, interesting. =]
good job & good luck! =] -
A very interesting work of art. The only problem is, is that I asked for free-verse poetry, not prose poetry. But I will accept this. I liked your rhyming and assonance. Your imagery was great but your clarity and articulation of the topic was a bit rigid and unclear. Other than that this style was very well written. Good luck in the contest!
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I need your option number or I have to DQ you. You were supposed to give meit before you entered
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i'm really sorry that i forgot it, and i've been gone for three days (so just now getting your comment.)
again, sorry.
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where's the option number in your author's notes?
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Plastic noses (and everything else), mannequin poses, Jack Daniels and overdoses.
i must have reread that line about ten times, it just made me hold my breath and just soak it in. amazzing.
this was just beyond brillant. i am in love with it.
&hearts
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