Used to have a mantra that kept me afloat:
‘maybe if I keep forgetting,
None of this will have happened at all’.
But truth is, everyone can see the scars
and they know how they got there, where they’re from.
I kept telling myself this past I have
is only an intricate illusion,
but still, I couldn’t find the peace I searched for.
Used to think ‘it seems so long ago,
it’s just a memory’
But they’re some I’ll never be rid of
Which is why I’m taking a stand now,
better late than never
After years of agony,
I had a late night epiphany
‘I’m worth more than this’
I won’t let blondie put his hands
where they don’t belong again.
And don’t bother waiting up, I won’t be there
to help you pack your pipe tonight, hundreds of dollars going up
in smoke.
I never wanted to be the center of everything,
just the anything of something, and I finally am!
The blade? It’s in the trash, next to many other addictions
cause, believe it or not, mom, I am allowed to be here.
I’m entitled to a decent life,
and this stand I’m taking is more courageous
than you’ll /ever/ be
So come to me, take my hand, let’s take a stroll
I’ll trace each scar and mark for your learning, and my healing
We’ll decipher the true meaning of empathy together
and as we do, we’ll find the light, run towards it, and
never
look back
Author notes
Writing is healing, and a solid reminder of what never to return to. This is how I recover.
Hope it's not too long
A contest entry
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Comments
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this was a great write
truly emotional...
we all have our different ways of reminding ourselves what we can be and we do not want to go back to what we were before
i think thatit is great that people canfind truth and meaning to their life so easily after a breakdown
it's truly grea that you overcame it all and you should be very proud of yourself
and no it's not to long...lol...i read it al with ease
thank you for entering, well done and good luck in the contest
xxx
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Thanks for the comment. A lot of life has been pretty sucky for a while, but I'm finally getting myself out of the hole I dug. Hopefully it stays that way.
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