Consider me sad, Consider me unsound
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consider it me
I’m a normal person
Looking for a way out
Like a simple guy with eyes
That can’t seem to see
I am someone
I, do not want to be
I say what I think
I mean what I say
I am a carpet,
Walked on
Every single day
I’m like wallpaper
You forget I’m there
I’m invisible
You look right through me
You think I’m tough
Maybe even mean
Its just
I have feelings
Unlike the rest
Of you Fucking machines
Consider me passionate, Consider me sullen
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consider it me
I walk through the desert
Expecting to find a stream, I do
My friends,
I’m glad for my friends
They give me a different perspective
And help me see life
Their exaggerated actions
Makes it appear like
Life is bad
I can pick flowers
And my friends
But not my dad
I like diversity
I love romantic surprises
As life is better
When there’s more
I have little
If any love
When I find love
I won’t have to think twice
I am Ostracized
And left out in the dark
I’m not seen as one in a billion
I’m seen as
A small guy in a big world
Consider me lonely, Consider me misunderstood
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consider it me
I grew up with false parents
Unlike any child should
I have no one
Who knows me
They only guess who I am
By what they see
The memories I like
Are the ones I cannot keep
The memories I hate
Are the ones I cannot lose
They’re the only ones I have
Such as bullies
Such as Belding
A school from my past
Now, when I look around school
I only see
Herds of sheep
I am never alone
Except at home
But I am always lonely and misunderstood
They say take the drugs
I said only an idiot should
Therefore I would
High on medications
High on dreams
To me life,
Is never as it seems
The image is distorted
There’s more
There’s less
And often
I’m completely wrong
Consider me an observer, Consider me Blind
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consider it me
I can step outside my body
But still see the real me
I have eyes that can see
When in school
I see
The lonely
The left out kids wishing to make bombs
The popular guys with their girlfriends
Shallow people with other perfections
They're always together
I'm sure you see them to
But I see the world in all its color
Too bad its only black and white
Nothing full of happiness
No mercy
No life
Consider me someone new; Consider me an expert
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consider it me
Changing is something we all go through
From Holding hands, being wild
To Holding back tears, faking smiles
From From mommy and daddy love you so much
To Realizing no one cares and life is tough
From cute clothes, beach blond hair
To A dark shade of black, due to knowing, no one cares
From singing joyously, dancing in the rain
To Felling all the pressure, getting all the blame
From “we’ll be friends forever”, that was the best ever
To “Friends for this year”, putting hearts through the shredder
From knowing and doing nothing, being more than happy
To Knowing too much, except how to be involved how to pretend to be content
Consider me a book of science; Consider that knowlege useless;Consider me useless
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul
Consider it all
Consdier it me
I sit here in my room
Alone, just me and my laptop
And the internet
With nothing for me to do
So of all things I could do
I do not much
Just expand knowlege
Look for information
On physics and chemistry
But I somehow
Don't follow all these rules
So All I Learn Is A Lie!!!
So what I do enstead
Since I don't want to feel like an alien
I Turn that knowlege
Into creative abilities
I write poetry
Draw a little bit
And try to figure out
How to daydream and breathe
At the same time
Consider me defenseless; Consider me a soldier
My legs
My chest
My arms
My body and mind
I am an army of one
Able to take care of myself and yet not at all
I depend on people to make life not boring
I depend on people to help me do things day to day
But I still train alone
I can easily be killed as it is
I'm defenseless
I'm just preparing for Basic Training
Then I will be a soldier
Be ready to take on anything, anyone
And yet I will be defenseless alone
For even the most powerful needs allies
In the next year,
I will gain many powerful enemies
But even more importantly I will gain allies
So I will not be defenseless like I am now
All above is me
Consider it so
Consider it all; Consider me all of these...
Sad
Unsound
Passionate
Sullen
Lonely
Misunderstood
An Observer
Blind
Someone New
An Expert
An encyclopedia of science
Some one useless
Defenseless
a soldier
Consider it all
As I’m considered me
Author notes
Crazy-Dan Grand Theft Autumn
upon popular demand, i copy and pasted it new for a contest
its litterally about me, what the contest runner was asking for
And for everything that has defined me there is a chapter as I call it, its really just a named section
adoptee
In a list
A contest entry
- The Adopt a Poet Foundation Contest! All Letters Apply!!!! by Miss Faerie.
525 points, ended August 21, 2007, 13 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Bring It All by Simply Simple.
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Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Round Two Tell Me About The Other You by storiesuntold.
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As yourself when you meds began and what changed to bring the meds out for you . Did you change in some way that brought this about . There is nothing wrong with taking meds if they are so needed .But so many kids today in haveing their way all the time finds out in high school this cant be anymore .And in finding this out sucludes themself from the world and rebels by locking their feelings and mind away from others .Any dr will perscrib medications if they see this feeling you must have something wrong . Try talking with your family stop the battle and really talk dont get upset and keep your voice down evern if they dont at first tell them whats been goiing on in your mind and that you needed to feel their love .
My sister took her grand son and kept him for a while for he kept getting into trouble all the time rebelling against everyone and everything .
They kept on piling on the medication to settle his beavior only he was getting worse and was headed for jail .She took him home and took him off all his meds and watched him like a hawk and after one week he began to turn around and be himself again and being in a home filled with love and no cursing and screaming and fighting he had no problems what so ever .It wasnt him that needed fixing it was his family that was causing his problems -
What an awesome write here
As I was reading your poem here It brought back many memories of myself as I was growing up and all the thoughts that rushes through our minds sometimes feeling like a jiggsaw puzzel unsure where all the pieces go or eveen if in ones life would they ever fit to make a complete picture and left in aw of its presures that weighs on the young minds every day
You in the knowledges you have gained your answers are right there and know those questions will always be there we only answer the ones that are closest to our hearts the rest we leave and let time take care of them .
Often in our minds we think people dont care we feel they are looking right through us when in truth we are looking through them for we refuse to let our minds hear anyone but what we believe is true . In doing this we become lost for we begin to shut ourselves down and hide within our own little world and becoming the watcher of life instead a part of life .Interesting as it may be we dont realize others are watchers as well .They also access what others are doing trying to feel what their actions are telling us .Being a watcher has its
gains though for it helps you understand people about you only you label them without knowing them how could you really know what that person is like . The world does revolve in groups the answer is where do you fit in will you be a loner and deprive yourself of a life there before you or will you start your own group of friends and teach them what you know as they could teach you . In what I saw I felt you are adopted and if so why would you think your parents dont love you may I ask when did they stop for if they adopted you then the love was there to have raised you up. Did they stop or have you in the time spent begin this cage of thought decided on your own they dont care for if it is the medication they say you so need then check it out for yourself . Get it adjusted to you just because the dr perscribed it for so many a day tell him how it makes you feel if you opened up to your dr and told him these feelins you may be surprised at his answer and if you opened up to your parents you would find they never stopped loving you to this day . You have to talk with parents and tell them your feelings otherwise how would they know how you feel or how they make you feel . -
I loved this stanza! It was so perfect
"Changing is something we all go through
From Holding hands, being wild
To Holding back tears, faking smiles
From From mommy and daddy love you so much
To Realizing no one cares and life is tough
From cute clothes, beach blond hair
To A dark shade of black, due to knowing, no one cares
From singing joyously, dancing in the rain
To Felling all the pressure, getting all the blame
From “we’ll be friends forever”, that was the best ever
To “Friends for this year”, putting hearts through the shredder
From knowing and doing nothing, being more than happy
To Knowing too much, except how to be involved how to pretend to be content"
I loved this entire thing! Thank you for the entry and welcome to the finalists list
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I liked this poem, though it is very very long haha.... you seem to really feel what you have written and that is a big part of being a writer. thank you for opening up to all of us like you have
love jasmine oxox
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this was a little boring - way too long of a poem, try breaking it up into sections perhaps, oh and the font is the same size as what my poetry is, so what is that about font too small! if you can't read people's poetry, try getting some glasses. why moan that other people's poetry is small when you are doing the same with your own presentation.
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Life
Yes I felt so sad, I really liked it though!! To be so misunderstood I'm so sorry, yet you do have hope in your poem too. I felt a lot of emotions for it hits my life in most area's! I think it was an excellent write.
I love the title and the first and last line tie together perfectly!! But fellin, I think is suppose to be feeling. Maybe not for my poetry learning has a ways to go. You seem like a pro at it!!
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Very long, but worth sticking it out. You covered many points that are true for everyone who ever graduated from a school.Very raw and true. It brought back alot of not so great memories of my own.
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I hate long poems, but this one... I really enjoyed... it felt real and didn't seem to take long to read. Great job.
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hold on *wipes away tears*
this is more than gold. you can go soooo far in life with this!!! I wish you good luck in life! wow...this is so beautiful....
my fav part was this:
Changing is something we all go through
From Holding hands, being wild
To Holding back tears, faking smiles
From From mommy and daddy love you so much
To Realizing no one cares and life is tough
From cute clothes, beach blond hair
To A dark shade of black, due to knowing, no one cares
From singing joyously, dancing in the rain
To Felling all the pressure, getting all the blame
From “we’ll be friends forever”, that was the best ever
To “Friends for this year”, putting hearts through the shredder
From knowing and doing nothing, being more than happy
To Knowing too much, except how to be involved how to pretend to be content
thanx 4 sharing!
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This is very powerful, a great magnetism comes through the words, the changes and the lack of defenses side by side with the strength makes this a very compelling write. Well done.
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Excellent
This write is so today for so many and yet they dont really know each other for if they did life would truly be different to know there are others who understands and feel the same way .Keep up the good writes here for you truly have something to say and needs to be heard
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Wow!!
I will say...Wow again~
firstly~ I was clicking on a poets name to leave a message and for some reason...I received this poem...
but I am happy I have read for You have brought forth reality~and emotion...not just words to a screen~
Show a real person exists within Your human shell
but also~ compassion and a beautiful heart
This is just what I needed to start my day!
Thank You for the Inspiration!!
Thank You for sharing this
and best wishes to You
in the contest!
Many blessings too
and much love~ Desire~*~
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Thanks for entering...
Wow. I love this. It's open and honest and shows something that you hold inside. I love how perfectly plain it is... because it shows that you are a real person, as opposed to writing for no sake
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very interesting. I really like the repeating verse and it grew on me even more as the poem progressed. You say a lot about yourself here and you say it very truthfully. I was with you for most of the way, thought it started getting a little sloppy and forced around the big stanza about change that started "Changing is something we all go through" but I did enjoy this quite a lot. very nice
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I know what you mean.
So much of this i could relate to and yet there was no way i could have said it in such a readable way
Marvellous!
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Woah, Awesome long but awesome.
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