There was once a time
I held out to your name
Putting you on a pedestal so high
Higher than yourself, you made me go past the sky
You took my breath away the second I saw you
As your eyes met
Looking at your face was better than sex
...to bad what would of happened next...
I saw you that day in March
You took my breath away
I couldn't get you out of my head
About how amazing you were
On the ledge of the pool that August night
You looked into my eyes, and held me.
Nothing ever felt so right.
There went by my eight grade year
And I never let go of your I.U. visor
That I held so close to me
I hoped and dreamed that we could be together someday
...I didn't know it would turn out this way...
It was in November
Tranced in a dream...
I had seen you in Walgreen's
You tried to give me a hug, as I looked at you like you were crazy
I was heart broken
And didn't want to give a damn about your name
There was something that comforted me of you
Could it of been that we felt the same?
You walked away, then you were gone
[reality c/h/e/c/k]
I went out to grab you and you were gone.
I didn't know you were so far away
I miracle happened my freshman year
Vanessa was in you art class and
All she did was talk to me
Showing you a picture of me
Recollecting, you see my face
I see you in the hall
One day I come up to you
And talk to you.
Then there was the day I had the nerve
To get the kiss that was constantly prolonged
For over a year and a half I craved that taste
{What precious memories of a kiss like that and still takes my breath away}
Mend-ling with that flame...
Only a heart to break and a forsaken flame to tame
You weren't in school for over a month
And you were at your girlfriends
[Insert the ‡dagger ‡ here]
This ♥ sank to the ground...
That abused girls glass heart shattered to the ground
The thinking of love
And how she wanted to give her v-card to you
Knowing, feeling, thinking you were worth it
After a love poem, and getting hit by her mom in the car
I thought that you were worth it all
... But no...
I went to my last class, I tell Amy I die today
I still don't know how I woke up after all that
I still wish I didn't remember any of that
Of how your kisses taste
But your engaged to a woman
That cheats in your face.
After the heart break of knowing all that
I take the guy that's after me
He knows I'm hurting, rapes right off the bat
Takes what's yours, knowing it was wrong
Not wanting to believe all of it...thinking its all gone
Here I am nearly two years later
It still hurts me, I don't mean to be a hater
I wish you could have known Richard, how much I thought of you
But four years of age became between you and me
Here I am, nearly seventeen
A tainted beauty queen
You'll never have me
But I wanted you to have me
Part of me wont let you go
Not like you'd remember me, but I thought you should know
I loved you, and I'm going to let you go
I am forsaken and shattered
Of distorted glass
I'm an on-line distance mess
Banned from Natasha, thinking you were worth it
And she warned me...from August 9th 2003
I have a boyfriend
Who treats me like a queen
...Always rushing...
I want to forget that you ever caused any of this Ricky...
*cry* good bye...
I loved you, but I forgave you
Author notes
There was me, ... and an older guy. That's what gave me of my s/n XxxlostxinxlovexxX it was something like that. he was engaged. and i had the biggest "love" for him. i trid several times to kill myself that night. none of it worked. 2 months later [you should know this if you really read the poem] i was raped... i didnt let myself accpet that until august 19th 2006.
it "happend" the day after his birthday. i went passed his Myspace. and it helped me deal with my writer's block a lil. I know its not my best. You dont have to read it. please be considerate and support me. part of me is still in true pain right there i did start crying... so this needed to be let out. comment it?
A contest entry
- {{ R* e* C* o* V* e* R* Y* }} by XInsanity-FairX.
550 points, ended August 17, 2007, 10 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
I know. It's too long.
Comments
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Oh God hun...this is such a sad poem. A very sad poem. It's also a very personal one. But I love it. It's written with feelings and pain...amazing job!
Keep writing and God Bless
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omg
i soooo remember that
wow
im glad you wrote about it
this was a great way for you to express yourself and how you've felt about the whole thing
good for you!!!!
And you were at your girlfriends
[Insert the ‡dagger ‡ here]
This ♥ sank to the ground...
That abused girls glass heart shattered to the ground
Those lines were brilliant hun.
Good luck in the contest!!!
ily;;;
:]
♥♥♥
Brandi -
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hun i won and didnt know til now
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this is just awfully sad! i feel u gurly and i understand heartbreak completely and could send u a nice comment if missy kitty would stop playing with the mouse...but anyways... this poem is great and im sorry that this really did happen to u... u deserve much better...
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Such a bleeding heart across this page.. Love dismissed is the worse kind. You penned the crushed yet still pumping organ here so beautifully. Sad, but beautifully...
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wow...this was truly epic...i am very sorry about what happened to you...all of it...
it was a great poem...cos it came straight from your heart, i know what it's like to lose someone you love and have them not know or care how you feel. it hurts.
you truly put accross your pain in this poem, i felt it, i won't patronise you and tell you i know exactly you feel cos i don't and i hope i never do..but i have true respect for you for coping with it, and for surving, and for telling your story...that takes true courage
good luck in my contest
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thank you hun. surviving is one part, but healing is another. being able to put together this piece of crap poem was another thing. lol jk not complete crap, but i am glad you were able to enjoy it. thanks yous.
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I have a boyfriend
Who treats me like a queen
cry* good bye...
I loved you, but I forgave you
hey wuts up with u hope all is well sorry bout wut has happen to you I hope all is well this poem is outstanding and wonderful u have gorgeous talent. Ure heart shows through out this poem its amazing and well written. ure peom reminds me so much of my ex and how he done me so i know how u feel deeply and wut u goin through i went through the same thing and I had to say my final goodbyes bc it was soo wrong.. but enways hope all is good and well with u and your hanging in there and your doing okay. hugs to ya alsome poem keep da ink flowin. ttyl
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wow, i am really sorry about whats happened, to you, but even if it hurts us we have to remember that God lets things happen to us for a reason, great job here
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So sad and tragic. Our feelings and emotions get all twisted up and our heart get choked with them all. So much pain and torment you have endured. I hope it has helped to write it down and get it out. Maybe now you can start to move on and get past all the pain and heartache. Why did you say in our group message you ap greeter mom won't get a chance to read this?
Jeannie -
I'm sorry
but this is good =D
--t.r
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