i love i hate i do

I love you
I hate you
I can never make up my mind
I love you so much
But i hate the fact you hurt me
The wound was healing pretty fast
But something inside me made it break open once more
I want to be free of this
I want to be free of you
I love you
I hate you
I still can't make up my mind
It hurts god damn-it
Why aren't you here?
Trying to make the pain go away
You should be here
Why don't you care anymore?
What have i done?
You know what, fuck you!
I hate you for not doing the one thing i need
I need you to be here with me
I need you to ease my pain
I need you to release my fears
Where is the man i love?
Do you even exist outside my mind?
You were supposed to come
You were supposed to see
At least remember
What we mean to each other
I love you
But for now i can't help hating you
For not being there
When i need you
Just show it
Show you
Care?
I do.