It was hard for me, as I was the one responsible
I was the person, that they looked up to, i was suppose to be there
But how could I help them, when I could not help myself I didnt care
My kids memmories of my depression, were nothing but pain and sorrow
they were not sure if I their mother was going to be here tommorrow
I was very against the pills what would they do
but how could I not they needed me around, I knew this to be true
But the state I was in, how could I cope
They were loosing their mother loosing hope
My life was spiralling out of control, in front of my kids
I hate myself, I did not want to live
What was I thinking, How could I move on
I need to be there for them stay strong
My days were bleak, the worthlessness I felt inside
I would lay there for no reason I would cry
I knew I needed help, but I could not see
Look what I was doing to them, bringing them down with me
Slowly their smiles faded each day
they became angry, in the same way
I could see my little girls life turning out like mine
I needed to wake up to myself, give them my time
So kids I will change get out of this selfish world
I will be a mother again for my three little girls......
Author notes
depression
A contest entry
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This is exactly what happens with depression too. Loved ones are neglected and we feel guilt, but are imobilized and unable to get out of the black hole we are in...it's as if we are glued there and can't move. Thank you for the entry.
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this was a great write...truly moving
well done and good luck in my contest
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Your words are so honestly penned which in my eyes makes you a great writer. Depression is a hard thing to get through especially when you've got kids. I wish you all the best.
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I can so relate to your write. I too suffer from depression and I have to watch how I act around my little girl, which makes it really hard. I know you can relate. You are such a loving mother to care about your little girls so much. Great write
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