Exhausted
I examine the ultrasound obsessively
Trying to memorize every blur of white
The only proof of your existence
It’s the only picture that will ever be taken of you.
If I could
I would cradle you in my arms
Feel your tiny hand within my own
And never let you go
I would sing you lullabies
Kiss you on the forehead
And love you
Just love you
You were above
Above a world of fault
Above a world of me
I cry for the misery of being flawed
I would stain you
How can I ask you to understand?
I wasn’t ending you
I was trying to shelter you
The thought of ruining another beautiful thing
Was too much to endure
And I knew from your heartbeat you’d be perfect
I’m so sorry.
A contest entry
- letter to a baby by CarCrashHumor.
600 points, ended August 11, 2007, 35 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Comments
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this is heart-wrenching...
and it's beautiful

