[ The last decent human, ]

The last decent human,
was taken off Earth.
Taken from underneath me
And then you compare yourself to him?
I wish he was here
the man of my life
to comfort me through this
He wouldnt leave
and only sit by me
to make sure I was fine
When a friend asked
Me what he gave to me
Heres word for word
What I told her
he gave me a whole new look on life.
jeezus...i only thought that the world
was full of hate and tears and that
there was nothing that this miserable
fucking planet could offer me that
will make me happy...or even smile.
He showed me that just because I have
had a hard tiem in life there is always
an upside for dsomething. he showed me that
EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
He gave me a chance to experienced what
love was like, and what it can do to make
things seem that much more better.
he gave a reason to not give up on myself.
showing me that no matter what i did there was
always someone out there who did give a damn about me.
He showed me that people would do almost anything in their
power to show how much they would sacrifice for one love....
one person.
But he also gave me feelings that i could never EVER
put into words becuz he made me feel like
i was one of a kind...
and no one in the world could ever compare to me.
I loved that guy with all my hearts and he loved me...
but all i did was let him down. I broke his heart
and i will never forgive myself.
I remember one time when my ex was harrassing
me and kept trying to hit on me...so Patrick confronted him...
well my ex called him an emo pussy and Patrick layed him out....
i loved him more than i could ever tell anyone.
He made me feel so happy all the time.
I woke up smiling...went to bed smiling and i was always with him.
Always on the phone with him and always happy.
I was never scared of anything when i was with him.
I was always feeling secure and like i could fucking take on
the whole fucking world as long as he was by my side....
and i let that slip away...from me and from the love of my life.
When I thought I was pregnant with his kid all
i could do was dream about our future together and hope
that nothing on this earth would take him away.
that he would be the one i would grow old with...
the man i said i do to and the man who would hold
me close to his heart always and forever.
I gave him every inch of love i could offer anyone and
he gave me so much more.... i dont ever regret Patrick
and I never will...nothing will ever make me forget him
or make me regret what he gave me....
i miss him more than anything and i would give my life
so i could be his guardian angel and watch him through life.
yeah it would kill me to see him with another woman
but at least i would be able to watch him....
thats all i want...just to feel his warmth...hear his voice....
kiss his lips....i would do anything....
ANYTHING if i had the chance
and thats exactly why I miss him
And why I thought no one
could ever compare to him.