I saw Daddy beam with pride
to hear you’d be a boy
and he wore the biggest smile
of pure happiness and joy.
A new son to throw the football
in the big ole yard out back
another set of work boots
to sit upon the stinky rack.
Two working sets of greasy hands
under the hood ‘til past midnight
weekend begging for the keys
that turns into a fight.
I knew already Daddy was planning
all the things you two would share
When I broke the news that you were ill
it was more than he could bear.
He knew that we must send you back
to our loving Lord above
so that he could shelter you, dear son,
within his kingdom and his love.
Your Daddy cried such tears of pain,
it doesn’t seem to appease
to know that we are losing you
brought this grown man to his knees.
I saw the hurt wash over him
his face became so pale
the fact that we can’t have you here
locked this grown man’s heart in jail.
He must now deal with burying
all those loving plans he’s made
put them to rest along with you
and let the father/son dreams fade.
Daddy will never forget you, son.
you’re in his heart forevermore
because you are his little boy,
a precious son he does adore.
I know he will remember you
when he awakens every day
He will always keep you in his thoughts
in his heart, his son will stay.
When you look to us from Heaven’s home
and you see your Daddy’s smiles
know, sweet child, he feels your love
come to him across the miles.
You’ve been a gift from God, JT
that’s what your Daddy will think of
I know you’ve felt how special it is
just to have your Daddy’s love.
Author notes
This was written for our unborn son, JonThomas, who will not survive this pregnancy and will go home to Heaven soon to rest in peace. A first attempt to express all that his father Donnie is feeling right now, which seems impossible to put in words. This is just the beginning of coping and healing.
JT, your Daddy loves you so much...
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Oh, wow. This was so... hearbreaking...
I don't know what to say, but I know I can't say that I can begin to feel with you. I mean, I've never lost a baby - never even been pregnant, so... I mean, how can I relate?
I know I can say that I feel sorry for you... for what's going on and everything.
Again, so heartbreaking... -
heartwrenching may strength fill this emptyness,
once some-one is alive in your heart they are never gone. -
Oh, my.
with the image and the focus of your special words, I'm no critic respectively.
How darling!
" thoughts without word
are those hardly heard
swinging to and fro
from an appleless bough." From me to you.
Thank you!!!
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ohhh Lori, this just rips at the heart strings. My heart aches reading this. The father/son relationship is a bond that is so strong and those dreams will be hard to mend. May peace find you in the fact that he'll be there waiting for you at heavens gate. Thanks for sharing this.
With love, your big brother,
Charley
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Words will help you heal and love...love will carry you.
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I can not say more...I am gasping and grasping with a knowing. What peace and acceptance comes from this beautiful poem written straight from the heart of a mother whose faith in good over-rides the keening of not knowing. and bless you forever, dear heart.
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such a sweet and heartwrenching tribute to your son, how much love does he inspire you and how much love does he receive from you ... his task was one to be accomplished in so little time, but the power of the love he generated in your family and in all those who have the grace to come in touch with you, is overwhelming ...
I am sure that jonthomas is an angel who had taken a form for a short while in order to spread compassion and love ...
his gift is incredible - and yours in return a faithful echo ...
much, much love,
maa
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Just beautiful nothing could be said with any more Love the true raw emotions I feel,I'm at a lost, I can't even imagine the pain...I send Love and Prayers to you and your loving family
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I am also sorry to hear of your pain and sadness,
But admire your courage to do what is best,
May God comfort each of you and hold you within his
Grace,
From our Home to your Home we send you warmth.
Love and Light
Shey
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I am sorry to hear of this pain and sadness the entire family is feeling and experiencing. I only hope the Lord will surround you in His love and grace and give you comfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you alls, Terry
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Lori, I don't know you very well, but my heart and love go out to you and your family at such a tragic time.
You will all be in my thoughts and prayers..
Sue
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I prayed for you both
I know how this man must feel
So often I ask my God, the reasons for the trama I see around me. I can only think,
"to he who much is given, much is expected". Be blessed for all the other wonders in your life that give you joy.
I feel for your husbands loss. You did well to make these words. Sometimes writing is the best relief.
I want to repete that message I gave you earler
for others tha may read this and find dispaire.
There is a book that may aid you. "Why do bad things happen to good people" I found shelter in this when my brother died needlesly at thirty.
Lastly, let me say all infent children, go directly to our Father, to be held in His arms as would you both.
He was blessed to be warmed by you
Rick
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Oh The pain is this is tremendous! Brought tears to my eyes. I had a miscarriage several years ago, and can relate to this a bit.... I am sooooo sorry to hear of your loss and pain.
May God keep you and bless you. -
sigh and hug...
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Oh, Sis...........
Words cannot express what I feel for you and your family.....my heart breaks knowing the pain you are facing....I love ya, Sis and please know that my prayers are with you each day and my hand extended to you in love and friendship......You have used this pic before, I remember it......
So beautiful, dear one....Let your undying faith hold you up....You are special and so loved
with love and tears,
Sis Lynda
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