Unheard Witness

Avoid it, let its sight slip
From the corner of your eye
It sits there looking so comforting
So beautiful so tempting
The thought is mesmerizing
Keep your eyes away from the shine
The moon makes it glisten-
As if it's the best thing you've seen since him
Since you've been used
Destructively abused
Since your soul was thrown around
And returned bruised
The best solid thing you've come in contact with
After him....
After the pieces of you were strewn on the cement floor
The same floor that he picked you up off of
Stop glancing at it....
Stop torturing yourself with it's promising relief
It's taunting you
On the corner of the desk where it innocently rests
Fight it...just this once
Where did your strength go
Did that leave you too
Your loneliness is saturating
Don't look
It only becomes more infatuating
The longer you look
The harder it is...to resist
And now you're touching it
Running your fingertips along it's edge
Grasping it with both hands
Letting it balance in the palm of your hand
It's weight makes you weightless
It's the cure to your restlessness
One touch leaves you breathless
The warmth of yourself drips slowly
And seems to be your favorite embrace
Even better than his...
Intoxicating like his dishonest kiss
It's solution is to save you
From your sea of uselessness
The sea you created with false bliss
The physical pain lasts only a while
And it all seems worth it-
Tonight you'll go to sleep with a smile
And i'll have to take your place
Take place of this girl whose once again fallen from grace
He must have also taken her faith
This girl whose left pieces of herself all over the place
With a little courage, she could have it made
She wouldn't have to find comfort in the (blade)
As most things do she too will fade
Once you convince yourself that you're ruined
Even the beautiful things can't be saved
And you allow yourself to be his slave
Allow yourself to give up
To loose all trust
Even the trust within-
That trust that you can fight this
The trust that you will win
And you continuously repeat the sin
The sin of destructing all you have left
All you have left of him
And you go through the rest of your life with a limited perspective
You'll have no one left to blame
If you don't let anyone in.