It's Monday again,
Break the fast and clean,
Take pills that keep me sane.
I'm just your average teen,
With a problem, Nothing new.
Anxiety prods and pokes,
At my scared paranoid mind.
'Is my life a hoax?'
Worried thoughts grind,
Into my skull.
Consumed in silence,
I sit with a grin,
Committing violence,
To my battered skin.
For I didn't swallow,
That tiny capsule,
That prevents sorrow.
It's depressing to know,
That pills subside,
Thoughts I shouldn't show.
Thought I will hide.
I am like stone,
Compared to friends.
I'm like a drone,
That pretends,
To be cheerful.
I cut my arm,
To check if I'm here.
With my palm,
I wipe the rouge tear.
I can bleed,
Breathe and talk.
But can't succeed.
Separation anxiety, depression,
And panic attacks.
There is my confession,
Off my tired back.
Emotions revolve around,
A tablet in my hand.
It keeps me bound,
To this cursed land.
Author notes
Eh I suffer from depression, panic attacks and separation anxiety. It sometimes gets annoying having to take tablets everyday or else by the afternoon I'm either in blind rage or having a breakdown. Separation anxiety I didn't even know existed, but hey Joyce says I have it.
After thinking about it, it makes sense. I don't go over to other people's houses much and I spend more time with my mum than with anyone else.
I need some tissues for my issues?
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aww hunni, great piece very emotional. i get panic attaks, and im on anti depressents, i suffer from anxiety too! no how it feels! ur not alone x x x
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well this was very emotional and i think that it flowed very nicely! thank you for entering my contest and good luck in it!
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Reading this piece scrolling down... long... narrow... dark brick background... the shape of the poem feels like it's taking a descent into a deep dark well. It really amplified the mood of the writing and made it an experience. Great and sad moment. Thanks.
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Wonderful and honest write! Thank you for sharing it...we all need tissues sometimes hun!!! Best of luck in contest!
Love~
Az
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Deep Ashlie. You always wear your soul on your shoulder and bare all in your poems. Thats what i love about them. Theyre deep and theyre meaningful. Doesnt matter what other people think or what other say, i will always love you anyway. The whole poem was amazing, no need for a favourite line.
Swintha xoxoxoxxo!
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Yea this really personal i love it.
i spend more time wit my mum too lol.
it sux takin pills i know cos i got some genetic thing,and i get pain everyday,im depressed too.
B ut at least we are still alive lol.
you know good luck. you know herbs are good for what you got. valerian and st johns wort and shit and they ain't got side effects lol peace luv Jesse
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