time for ill-equipped
muscles shoe-laced to brittle bones
to try holding the world again
blistering,
cracked,
& bleeding
haunting my last decision
hard to bear the weight
before even starting
taking it on
trusting-
go
got mine down
add yours in layers
soil then ocean
not wanting to crumble
to stay strong
both worlds
back pained,
ache uncontrollable,
& hairline fractures
unwilling to admit regretting
flooding tears: adding pressure
arms wrap: willing strain
beginning to buckle,
crashing deep fast
blanking this feeling
choice obliterated
taking refuge, wing under
shoving dirt and water
back on you





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